Hais, damn disappointed. For the whole of today, i have been the only one that auto msg him. Whole day, i only recieved ONE call from him and that was in the morning. He told me that he is going to play dota at penisular. That`s all. I asked him to msg me when he reaches school but sad to say, he didnt. Msged him during my recess and asked him how was his paper, and he replied once den never replied anymore. Hais..This still nvm. After school i called him and asked him where he was, he said e-games, going to play dotA. I ask him why he didnt msg me, his reason ' oh, i wanted to but i forgot'. Hahs... I was so pissed off i didnt want to msg him for the rest of the day and see if he would msg me or call me, but when i reached home, after reading the newspaper, i couldnt resist and i called him to tell him i`ve reached home. And after tht, i din msg him or call him, i went to take a nap from 3+ all the way til 6.30 and i expected to see at least a msg of concern from him but nahs, not a single msg or missed call from him. Totally sad and disappointed and i really felt like crying. I called him and asked him where he was, this is how our conversation went

Me: 'Where you? why you whole day nvr msg me?'
He: 'I playing CS, call you back ltr'
Me: 'Aiya, dont need call me la, Bye'
He: 'Bye'

He`s got his exams and yet he can still be out playing games. Hahs.. Very funny. I really wash my hands off you marcus foo. I try so hard to show my care and concerns for you but do your fucking appreciate anot? You take them as naggings and kpkb-ness. Fuck la ok. You dont even treat me as your GF anymore. What am i to you now? If nothing den pls tell me and let go ok? No point you go on like that and continue hurting me. I really hate to be thinking why you are treating me like that now, and if i voice out how i feel to you, you will say im crazy, attitude problem bitch. As im typing this, i have alrdy sent a msg to you and you`ve not replied. I really dont know what is going on in your mind anymore. Since you detest meeting me so much and all, why still make me you GF? If you think its happiness tat i feel now, i tell you you its not okay. If you think that im thinking too much than so be it ok? I dun fucking care anymore. Dont expect me to listen to you and be so guai anymore because wadever you want me to do, i do it for you and what about you? one simple task of asking you to msg me, SO DIFFICULT is it? Im not even asking for much. You know i really very tired of this r/s le, i really feel like breaking down and cry sometimes, giving up this r/s is always running thru my mind this few day but still, i hold on so tight because i know i`ll regret someday, what about you? what are you doing? If you really wanna see our r/s go down the drain just like tht, den continue treating me like how you are treating me now ok? My feelings are always fluctuating, it always goes up and down and i myself am not sure of my feelings anymore. Hais, pls.. i beg you.. pls stop hurting me le.. if you still love me, pls assure me of it and prove it to me.. hais ( :: '-' :: ) I really dont even know if we can pass this june hols tgt. The june hols is really smth im looking forward to because i think tht you would accompany me alot like you did during last year`s holidays. hai... Maybe, sometime soon, everything will just be over? Hais....

Going out with my crush tml. I really need to go out or i will really go crazy staying at home and thinking rubbish. And at least when im out, i will not be so itchy fingers to msg him. Hais.. Sayos